Must be strangely exciting to watch the stoic squirm

"I'm starting to realize what's going on."
"You can't do it yet, Sat, you have to wait until it is over."
"I know, I'm endeavouring it, I swear, but it's just overtaking me."
"One more month and you could realize it, cry it out and lay speachless, but now, just put up with it."
Me and myself.