The saddest song ever.

Setsunasa nokagiri made,
dakishimetemo,
itsuma demo hitotsu ni wa,
narenakute,
yasashisa yori fukai basho de,
fureau no wa itami dake,
futari wo musunde kudasai.

Tokura wa mou yume wo minai,
tomadoi nagara te wo totte,
eankoku na yoake no hou e arukidasu,
hontou no kotoba wa kitto,
hontou no sekai no dokoka,
bokura no mukuchina yoru ni hisonderu,
ima mo kitto...

Cellphones.

I don't really care about the cellphone I have, I am not interested in them at all, give me one useful cellphone and I'm happy, if it's cool, nice, if it¡ isn't, nice too.
But I decided to change my fare on Orange, so they gave me to choose between some cellphones. In the beginning I didn't want to have a new one, but SEB and Wrath ended up convincing me in buying this super-hyper-rad mobile phone, right? Nokia n73. I' ve always loved Nokias, for the record, and this one looked pretty nice, I only had to pay 39 euros and it is some kind of 3G with so many things I can't remember anyone.
Anyway, I was supposed to get the fucking mobile phone yesterday, but Orange staff didn't seem to want to accept the fucking contract.
Well, I thought today I could get the bloody phone. OK, so guess who hasn't got the Nokia n73.
I'm sort of freak when I'm interested in something, I read a lot about it in internet and all that stuff, firstly I just got over it, but I started looking for information and OMG I want the fucking nokia now.
I'm gonna kill Orange.

Intimacy.

I'm sort of freaking out. I don't like nosy people, I hate when people know things about my life because, I mean, it's MY life, and I should be the one to let someone know about it, right? If I consider someone important for me, right, I'll tell them all my secrets, or the ones I want to tell.
Ok, so there's this kind of BIG secret (I'm not going to explain it now, but everyone knows about it I think)and I didn't want anyone to know about it. ANYONE. I mean, I told Wrath about it just the night before it happened. And now I'm receiving lots of SMS like "I'm sorry..." or people on MSN feeling sorry.
I mean, DO YOU REALLY KNOW ME, FUCKING ASSHOLE?!
I know it's some kind of cool and tender to be right there when someone is blue, but, if you don't really know him, shut the fucking mouth up! Man, I don't know, I don't care if you're sad about it, or if you're over the moon, go and lick the door!
Anyway, there are people who are sending me sms who are nice, and I don't really mind whether they know about it or not, and their sms make me feel loved. But I'm quite sure I'm gonna freak out when I'm back at high school.
Now I'm sort of popular. Oh, gosh.
Yeah, and now go ahead and say I'm blunt and thoughtless.

Stealing things from blogs and thingies.

I saw this at Sunday's LJ and I found it pretty interesting =).

"Google the phrase "(Your name) looks like" and find the best ones from the first page of results. DONT FORGET TO PUT IT IN QUOTES, otherwise it won't work"

Valentín looks like Mini-Me dressed.
Valentin looks like he has been playing second base his entire career.
Valentin looks like one of the missing evil Mario Bros.
Valentin looks like a 70’s porn star. (I swear I found it XD!!)
Valentin looks like a little like a cyborg warrior.

So... Yeah, Natsuki and Salma, go and do it, it's nice =D.

Anyway, I'm so tired I could die. My cells are craving for eons of sleeping.


Current music: Armor for sleep - The truth about heaven.

Test from Salma

✓ I miss somebody right now.
✓ I don’t watch much TV these days.
✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.
✓ I love to play videogames.
× I have tried marijuana.
✓ I have watched porn movies.
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.
✓ I’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
× I carry a knife/razor everywhere with me.
× I have broken someone’s bones.
✓ I have a secret that I’m ashamed to reveal.
× I hate the rain.
✓ I’m paranoid at times.
× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
× I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.
× I talk really, really fast.
× I have a fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.
× I have lost money in a casino.
✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
✓ I like the way I look.
× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.
× I have slept with a roommate.
× I am always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have kissed someone of the same sex.
✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.
× I practically live in sweatpants or pijama pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.
× I’m obsessed with my blog.
× I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my parents.
✓ I have a mobile phone.
× I have passed out drunk in the last 6 months.
✓ I have rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.
× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I’m not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.
× I am shy around the opposite sex.
✓ I’m online 24/7, even as an away message. (More or less)
✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
✓ I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on the internet.
✓ I would die for my best friend.
✓ I’m obsessive, often a perfectionist.
× I have used my sexuality to advance on my career.
× I have dated a close friend’s ex.
✓ I am happy at this moment.
× I’m obsessed with guys.
✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
✓ I study for tests most of the times.
× I love my job.
✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.
✓ I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot whenever I can.
× I have jumped off a bridge.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I went to university out of my state.
× I am adopted.
× I am a pyromaniac.
✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.
✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people. (I used to, not now =))
✓ I like bright colours.
✓ I can whistle.
✓ I talk in my sleep.
✓ I have often thought I was born in the wrong century.
✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
× I have tattoos.
✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
✓If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine.
✓ I’m an artist.
× I am ambidextrous.
× I have terrible teeth.
✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I am extremely flexible.
✓ I like hugs more than kisses.
× I smoke.
✓ I spend way too much time on the computer.
✓ Nobody has ever said I am normal.
✓ Sad movies, games or music can often cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
× I am proficient in the use of many types of weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men’s suits.
✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.
✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can’t stand being alone.
✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.
✓ I’m a judgemental asshole.
✓ I’m a HUGE drama queen.
× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
✓ I need people to tell me I’m good at something in order to feel that I am.
✓ I can speak more than one language.
✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.
✓ I like reading fact more than fiction.
✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assigment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have piercings.
× I have spent the night in a bus station or other public place.
× I have been so upset about my physical gender that I’ve cried.
✓ There have been many times when I have wondered “Why was I born?” and may have cried over it.
✓ I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro game consoles.
× I am compulsively dishonest.
× I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes and finally not cared at all about my actual sex. (WTF?!)
✓ I am unashamedly bisexual, I have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
× I sometimes won’t sleep or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
✓ I have liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
✓ I don’t think strippers are greedy or slutty for dancing.
✓ I had the teen angst thing going on for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I love to sing.
✓ I have a thing for redheads.
✓ Most of the times, I’d rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically ‘fun’.
× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is complete before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.
✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I’ve accomplished, but it’s never enough.
× I need more time to myself.
× I hope that I go prematurely grey.
✓I love playing Truth or Dare.
× I contradict myself a lot.
✓ I think this survey was particularly long.

Yeah, I loved it, Salma =D. I don't tell anyone to do it. If you want to, go ahead ;).

Music.

Music is one of my "roots", ok? It's something I need to live without going mad anytime. I haven't heard music for a few days because I've been quite busy and the few songs I've heard were at the bus on my mp4. Now I'm kind of "rehabilitating"and listening to music anytime, it's sort of freak but I swear I missed it. MCR makes me feel so calmed. I don't mind if I look like a histerical fan or something like that because it isn't like that and I know it.
I needed to put it across though...




Current music: Welcome to the black parade - My chemical romance.

Hatred.

I love tea. I've just made a nice cup of it, "Prince of Wales Grey Tea".
I've heated milk, and then dropped it in the cup. And then I've seen his ashtray. I hate being right, I really do. A lot of people (I should say everyone) thinks I love being right and showing off, but it isn't true, I feel annoyed because it's like I've stepped on someone who was wrong, I feel pretty uncomfortable.
But today I've known I hate it. It is no more not liking it. I loathe being right. Now I know it.

Current music: my heartbeats. I swear I can feel them on my temples.

First appearance.

OK, here I am, I finally started writing this piece of insanity. I didn't know how to begin or even what I should write down.
So I decided just a few seconds ago to start today. Today isn't a very special day. In six days it's  to be an utterly special day, though =).
I decided to start today because I've studied in the weirdest place ever, the high school bathrooms. ... I'll explain it.
We were all freaking out because of the bloody history exam, right? So a nice quantity of us decided to go to the library so we could study in the Chemistry hour. Well, Wrath, Amy, Nan, Martha and me went there, we began studying, all right...
...
But then the bitchest teacher in the high school told us to go to class because "we were supposed to be there eventhough we weren't there". So we went looking for an empty classroom to study. But we didn't find anyone.
Well, could you ever ever believe that we ended studying in the girl's bathrooms? I was sharing the bathtub with Wrath, and studying History. If you tell me this isn't odd, I would die.
The best part of it is that we studied so hard the things which were supposed to appear in the exam. Do you know what? No one of them appeared.
Anyway, I hate History, but swotting there made it really funny =).

Current music: Fallen embers - Enya.