That feeling.

Today I've felt that feeling. A really strange one.
Until today I've been feeling more or less OK, sometimes I just was blue and that's all. But today I've been blocked for about ten minutes. You will think "oh gosh, how drama a queen!" but when I'm saying blocked it's absolutely blocked. I mean, just with one picture in your head, craving for putting it away and couldn't do it. It's terrible, I couldn't care less what you think, whether I'm exaggerating or I'm something of victim.
I just felt so bad. I'm starting to notice he's not here anymore, and that he'll never be here again. And it hurts so much...